Borderline Personality Disorder is like having a whole inside of you. You want to be loved and you want to love others, but as soon as soon as they get to close, you push them away. You think to yourself, why should I get too close to somebody just for them to go away? Then there are the people who are your roots, who you are comfortable with showing your true colors. You depend on them, but you know that it is just a matter of time before they leave too. You long for that love, to be held, so go around and do whatever it is you are asked to do even if you don't want to. Then you wake up feeling like scum. Somedays, you want to die. You want to kill the thing on the inside thats making you feel so horrible everyday. What can help? Is there a medication or treatment? The anger I feel overwhelms me and takes over at the drop of a hat and so keeping a job is impossible. What can I do?